I’m back. And it feels great. Not sure if there is even anyone out there in blogland to notice my absence but at any rate, I’m back and even if I’m the only one to note this, it feels damn good. Better than good in fact. Great.
I had a very hard year, and thankfully it all came to a boil so I was able to step back and start afresh. To put it mildly. And even though it was, for all intents and purposes, a shitty time for me, I really believe it was a gift from the universe telling me to reassess and re-evaluate what and who I was prioritizing in my life. The balance was so far askew and I didn’t see it. I was tolerating things I would NEVER have tolerated and worrying about things that should have passed by unnoticed. Giving myself the freedom to step back …or more realistically, hitting the wall and stopping cold, also gave me the distance to see what was really real, authentic and true, in my world. I realized how much beauty I have in my life. My family. My friends. My work. My hobbies. And how much ‘filler’ I have. Or had.
I am posting this image because in the messy landscape of my reality, I stand here at the end of the mess, or beginning of my new adventure, and realize that I am so incredibly blessed with my life. Those that stand with me are my people. With deep, beautiful character, integrity and empathy for others and a genuine love for me. Warts and all. Not everyone is capable of journeying through rough times with friends. I get that. I’m learning anyways. Friendship means different things to everyone and some simply don’t have it in them to navigate the grey zones, the ambiguity, and to understand and love through the rough times. And that’s all good. Not everyone is meant to. Like I said, I think this rough time in my life was a gift because those that recognized it before I did, asked me how I was, made me see the changes in myself, and then stood with me as I journeyed my way out of the grey zone, are truly amazing. Truly a blessing to me and those that have been lost, I thank them for the life lessons. I wish them well, I wish them happiness and I wish them friends and family that love them as unconditionally as I have.